for an ugly person my standards are unrealistically high
But, it’s hard for everyone.
Keep going. You can do this.
"To know or not to know? Each person in my support group realizes that we remain defenseless against the information we seek or avoid, writes Susan Gubar in her Living with Cancer column."
"Temperamental in origin, the divergent responses of Diane and Judy remind me that cancer patients are as different as all patients. Some people read every side effect in the pharmacy print-out that comes with their prescription and others simply toss it. Some search the web, while others shun it. As with genetic testing, some want to know and others want not to know. For some, statistics and prognoses form a protective shell, but the weight of that carapace becomes an unbearable burden for others. Quite a few feel that knowledge furnishes if not power at least control, whereas quite a few contend that all-consuming research allows disease to contaminate every waking moment of consciousness with dread."