Teenager Alex Hunter has pulled through more challenges than most people twice his age. However, even after surviving two separate cancers, he has yet another battle to fight – with…
my life got about a thousand times better once i stopped censoring myself
and by censoring i don’t mean i suddenly embraced indiscriminate swearing; i mean i stopped trying to sugarcoat my past or my feelings; i stopped lying by omission; i stopped having guilty pleasures; i began unabashedly enjoying whatever i liked; i became very honest; i cut out of my life poisonous people and negative ideals, and i am so, so much happier for it
Ok so today (well technically yesterday) while I was waiting in the patient waiting area another woman struck up a conversation. I didn’t really mind her asking why I was there but everything I said she made this face. No joke.
HER: Why are you here?
ME: (Points to shaved part of my head) Radiation so my tumor doesn’t come back.
HER: (makes that face)
ME: Yep…. (What is the proper response to shock and horror when you tell someone you have a brain tumor? I still haven’t really come up with one)
She then told me that I probably shouldn’t have dyed my hair because “can’t it get into your brain?”
ME: No, I don’t think the hair dye is to blame.
Then she told me that her brother died of cancer because he had a negative attitude and that made it spread all around his body and he just died. First the colon, then the liver, stomach, intestines, just all over and he died. Excellent, thank you for sharing, I will keep that in mind. THEN she was asking about my mask that I have to wear during radiation, “Oh it goes over your whole face? AND EYES? AND MOUTH??” ( cue the face)
Not to worry we’re on the same schedule this week so I will see her tomorrow! I had to just laugh about it because I really had no other reaction. I was counting the seconds until I was called back to get radiated! From cancer person to cancer person/regular person 1. Don’t make me feel bad about what kind of cancer I just happened to get 2. It’s not a competition of who has it worse 3. I don’t want to hear about someone who had cancer and died…while I am waiting to go into treatment 4. If my answers become shorter and shorter and I start playing a game on my phone, it probably means I am politely trying to be done talking to you
I feel like this was a hard story to retell online but if you’d care for a live re-enactment let me know! I promise you’ll laugh, I have the face down pat and maybe I’ll do it back to her tomorrow. The backup plan is to pretend I have no memory of our conversation and act like I’ve never seen her before in my life…I’ll practice keeping a straight face.